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White Like Me – Eddie Murphy

Posted by imfreenow on March 31, 2008

Can’t believe this goes back to 1984! Are we regressing? This was some good humor about racism by Murphy.


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Jews For Jesus

Posted by imfreenow on March 30, 2008

I went to see David Brickner tonight, the head of Jews for Jesus. I seem to have a Jewish theme in my life right now. He showed a video of their work in Israel. ISRAEL HAS ALMOST SIX MILLION JEWS! That’s an ominous number, since it’s the number killed in the holocaust. Soon, they say, more Jews will be living in Israel than all those outside Israel.

Less than 1 percent know Jesus as Messiah! Most have never heard the word Y’shua, the Hebrew name for Jesus. It makes my heart yearn for Jewish evangelism! ‘To the Jew first!’ I can’t believe how I have basked in the love and light of the Messiah’s love, as a Gentile, taking what belonged to the Jews first! I got it first! God loved me that much!

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Living with your parents at 52

Posted by imfreenow on March 30, 2008

Here is an article I found that says other people are doing it too!

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I have a friend in the Chinese government!

Posted by imfreenow on March 29, 2008

I was in Chicago at a “Father Loves You” conference being put on by the Toronto Airport Christian Fellowship. I was in the lobby of the hotel where the conference was being held and a very friendly Chinese man struck up a conversation with me.

I don’t remember what we talked about, or how the conversation started, but he handed me his business card and I e-mailed him. I didn’t receive a reply until I e-mailed him again just now. I am so excited!

He’s an officer of Chinese Inspection and Quarantine. He lives in Xi’an, an ancient capital city of China. He welcomes me to China!

Please pray for him, and that I would know what to say to him in e-mails. You know this is an opportunity for God.

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Breast Cancer Scare

Posted by imfreenow on March 29, 2008

Suffice to say, when they do mammograms, they often get a bad reading and I got one and had to go back. Man, you’d think they could be more thorough right from the start and not put you through all that! It turned out OK, but until then I was a bit upset. But not that upset, because the Holy Spirit gave me that inner “knowing” that I didn’t have cancer. We must hear from God.

I also went to the healing rooms in Golden Valley in between visits and got prayer for healing, and prayer for assurance. I also use Charles Capps’ book “God’s Creative Power For Healing” where you confess scriptures on healing out loud over yourself.

God is good!

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Dennis Prager Last Night

Posted by imfreenow on March 25, 2008

Dennis Prager talked last night at the Northland Inn and was funny and thought provoking. Most of you probably know that he has a talk show on the radio and can be found on Townhall and that he leans towards the right politically. He has very clear thinking and I’m amazed how he thinks of things that I do, since he is a Jew and I am a Christian.

He talked about the difference between men and women. He made me wish I could trade my brain with a man. He was so funny, saying that if a man had to wear a woman’s brain for a day he’d commit suicide, because women think way too much! He said men have the ability to turn off troubling thoughts and just not think about anything. He said if a woman had the ability to wear a man’s brain for a day, she’d exclaim, “this is so easy!” Oh, it sounds good to me, to be free from my mind! But, on the other hand, I don’t think Prager realizes that there can be pleasure in our thought processes, and that’s maybe why we do it.

Men would not necessarily want to kill themselves having these woman brains!

Anyway, I’d go into more detail about more of what he said – serious stuff- but I will continue this later. For now I’m going to try to exercise the ability to turn off serious thoughts, just like he said women can learn to do!

OK – here is some of the serious stuff Prager said that night. The topic is: “what keeps Prager up at night?” His first answer was: nothing. Then he said, “I’m done, are there any questions?” But then he said, although he doesn’t lose sleep over anything at all, there are things that are constantly bothering him, and he named them.

The first one is his children. He said he doesn’t know of anything that will occupy your thoughts more than your children – worrying about them. I now understand this only by being an aunt. I now think constantly about my nieces and nephews and the things concerning them.

He named some other things, among them the thing that led to talking about the difference between men and women, but the one that struck me the most was the last one: he worries about the fate of America. I almost thought he was going to cry. He said something that I guess he has talked about on his show before, that America has a trinity of values that are being threatened.

1. In God we trust – is now being threatened by secularism.

2. Liberty – is being threatened by equality (communistic idea of making all equal instead of encouraging people to go out and work for what they get)

3. E Pluribus Unum or Many Into One, the melting pot – is being threatened by multiculturalism – the idea that it is not necessary to become a part of this culture, but to just force your own culture on Americans

There was so much.

Oh yeh, I forgot. He is disturbed by evil, by the evil done by evil people to other people. He says that the truly evil in the world are like another species. And they don’t ‘get’ us, the people who care about right and wrong. He wouldn’t mind if God disposed of the truly evil in the world, and I clapped to that. This is a thought that I have had plenty of times.

He ponders the question of how much free will every person has. This needs more explanation perhaps, but it is an idea that I agree with, and so does Lutheran doctrine.

Prager and I think alike on so many counts. One thing he said I don’t agree with is the idea of luck. He says that there is just good luck or bad luck and that’s the way it is. I believe a person in relationship with God has more than just luck happening in his/her life. But basically he and I think so much alike.

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Posted by imfreenow on March 22, 2008

I said I was putting this book down during the holiday season to rejoice and forget about any end times stuff going on in the Middle East. I got bored, however, and picked up the book a couple nights ago and started to read. I can’t put the book down!

I had no idea of how positive and upbeat Joel Rosenberg is! He is saying that Israel is just beginning to enter a time of peace and prosperity that was prophesied in Ezekiel, and that Israel will later be attacked by Gog and Magog ( Russia with the help of Iran) and that Israel (the Jews in it) will then turn to God for help. We will then see the Jews finally turn to God in great numbers and finally accept Yeshua as Messiah! And God will show Himself in great power, deliver the Jews from Iran and Russia, and others in the world will turn to Him as a result!

I am overwhelmed with excitement. Go to Psalm 96, because after watching Hal Lindsey, (who is a doomsday type of prophet of the end times,) God led me to go to that chapter in Psalms. Notice how it is talking about God’s judgment coming, yet its tone is sweet – it talks about nature rejoicing! (96:11 Let the heavens rejoice, and let the earth be glad; let the sea roar, and the fulness thereof.KJV) That’s because for those of us who are in God’s will, walking closely with him, under the blood of the Lamb, there is great hope and joy ahead. And reading Joel Rosenberg, I am aware that he is tuned into this same reality. He knows this same God that I know – who brings you into greater light and hope. Look up, for your redemption draws nigh!

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not discounting everything Hal Lindsey is saying, or saying that I don’t still have trepidations about future judgments or problems. But out of it, I anticipate great deliverance.

I am so happy for the Jews! The Jews have been on my heart lately and this is the hope for them that I needed to hear. Hallelujah!

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New Update On Jonathan

Posted by imfreenow on March 21, 2008

In “Go Free Now” I asked for prayer for Jonathan.

There were responses in the comments that he isn’t mentally ill. The one who responded knows that I am concerned because of my own manic-depression. Unfortunately, my fears are not unfounded. My fears have been confirmed. In some ways this is a positive thing. For one, it means we are no longer in the dark as a family. For another, just like me, the fact of Jonathan having a mental illness means that God can use him in a special way to reach out to others who have this problem, and it can be used for good and for God’s glory.

The only problem is that we know it’s a rough road ahead. My sister, his mother, is dreading it and I share her burden.

Why do I know that he’s mentally ill? More on that later.

OK, I’ll try to tackle it simply. Jonathan has cut himself off. This sweet little boy who has always been with the family at gatherings and quietly been a part of us, has begun to refuse to join us for anything – Christmas, or even his older brother’s birthday, the brother he loves dearly. He has cut himself off from all people! He is living at my sister’s lake place and doing nothing! He refuses to work or go to school.

We are getting afraid of his isolation and what it may lead to. If he gets any worse he may not be able to take care of himself or he may hurt himself. WE includes my mother and myself, and now his mother, but not necessarily his father who has a lot of say in what happens with him. His father has – issues of his own – and is not necessarily going to like the fact of Jonathan having a mental illness.

I finally got Jonathan to confide in me and we spent over an hour talking. He talked passionately about the Catholic church setting itself up as an intermediary between people and God, instead of encouraging a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. He said that this is idolatry. He was making sense. But he went on from there to talk about other things related to faith and showed that he was being hyper-religious. He argued with me on what Jesus meant when he said we should have “abundant life.” He was arguing against abundant life and the need for money.

He said that working is idolatry because it is bowing to another person and not God.
He was establishing his (hyper) religious reasoning behind not working.

Unfortunately, I am familiar with hyper-religious thought because I’ve thought it myself.

When I have had a manic episode, they call it “schizo-effective” – being temporarily schizophrenic. In my case, I have left the episode and returned to normalcy, and am able to look back and remember what I thought and felt. I am also believing for no more episodes.

So I can look back at some weird thinking. I have also been around manic-depressives and schizophrenics through hospitalization. I am familiar with the thoughts and behavior that are common to the illnesses.

The sad thing about schizophrenia is that it usually doesn’t come in episodes, it is just a state that people are in, and they find it hard to recognize that they are ill.

Jonathan passed a point where he suddenly lapsed into this strange state, and then it has progressively gotten worse.

These illnesses always surface in a person’s youth.

Once again, Jonathan desperately needs your prayers. The prayer is that he will not hurt himself. It is also that his father will accept the reality of his illness and get the proper help. It is also for Jonathan’s deliverance and healing.

I am concerned that he has read Harry Potter books. Some people at the Holy Spirit conference who do deliverance said that it is a misconception that there is no harm in this, just like dabbling in Ouija board use and other such things. The people in deliverance always have to deal with these things in order to minister deliverance.

I am just starting to form an understanding of how people with these two illnesses: manic-depression and schizophrenia are often deeply concerned with their relationship to God and matters of faith. Jonathan is no exception.

He did, by the way, talk to me two weeks later. He was being rude. He didn’t seem to like the idea that his brother may be drifting from faith in Christ because of a girl, so he became belligerent. Once again, he seems to care a great deal about matters of faith, but at the same time, he is compromising the love of Christ.

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Please Pray For Dan

Posted by imfreenow on March 21, 2008

Dan is the guy I was “seeing” when I finally got my victory over sexual sin. We ended that part of our relationship in the summer of 2004.

This is one of those situations you can get in to when you have sex outside of God’s plan. I was not in love. I worked with Dan and he was my manager and trained me in sales. He was completely different at my job. He was authoritative and had composure. I fell into this situation in a stupid way, out of weakness. Anyway, we ended the physical relationship.

We continued as friends only he increasingly got weird on me. I led him in the “sinner’s prayer”, but he never showed any fruit. He never wanted God’s word or fellowship and he gave me back the bible I gave him.

He gradually got more and more paranoid. He actually believes he is living “The Truman Show.” He has accused me of being one of the actors in his living movie.

He believes in government conspiracies and that he is being monitored through the walls.

I have officially broken things off with him, and now have told him not to even call again. We had gotten to where he was free to call me once in a while, but that had to end because of what just happened recently.

He called me because his father was dying. Dan told me he had videotaped his father and that he wanted me to come over and watch the tape with him. He was alone and looking for comfort. He had been shutting out his father, believing his father was part of the conspiracy to monitor him, but now was opening his heart to him. His father was in a lot of pain physically.

It went OK. I went to see the video and ended up praying with him for his father’s soul. He cried. But the next day he called me and told me his father had killed himself with a shotgun.

Why did things have to be so weird with him? He said he was happy his father is finally at rest, but ugh! I was rendered uncomfortable. Dan was waiting for his father’s funeral, and I was thinking about how I wanted him to never call me again. I decided to call him and tell him to stop calling me. He was hurt and I could hear him crying. He said he just lost his father and now he was losing me.

I felt bad and apologized. So, I put off the final severance. He called me a little while after the funeral took place and sounded like he thought we were back to old times. Now I finally told him it was time to end this. I said we should think of the happy memories, but just let go.

I think he is taking me seriously. My heart is heavy.

He is seriously ill with paranoid schizophrenia. He functions enough to have a job and keep an apartment, but for how long?

He has had an unhealthy relationship to his family, his mother has a mental illness and had to be put in an institution (his father had re-married), his father is dead, his brother died, and he has a couple of sisters left with whom he doesn’t have a very good relationship (he believes one or both are involved in a plot to monitor him.) He is 32, but his father had him about 15-20 years after his siblings, so his siblings are my age. This may be why he got involved with someone my age.

He is actually very sweet. In general, he is just a sweet person.

The reason I feel strongly about severing him is that he doesn’t reach out to God, he latches on to me in times of need and in an unhealthy way. When a need or crisis comes, that’s a good excuse for him to get me involved with his life again, and then I find myself being sucked, once again, into a vortex of bizarre thinking. I know when I’m in the presence of mental illness. My involvement with him didn’t lead him towards greater health. He got worse. I know that he uses me as a crutch, or that he wants to suck life out of me, but that he doesn’t let my faith lead him to God.

I don’t know what it will take for him to turn to God, but I feel that being in his life is not going to do it. Prayer can do it. i can always pray.

Please pray for him.

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What a great feeling!

Posted by imfreenow on March 20, 2008

Googling yourself and nothing comes up. Nice feeling to not be put under the microscope of the public. By the way, I’m not really Gabrielle Eden. Sorry if that’s disappointing.

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Christianity Gone Wrong

Posted by imfreenow on March 20, 2008

Two (Christian) women discussing Brooke Shields

Woman 1: “Did you see Brooke Shields on David Letterman last night?”

Woman 2: “No, I didn’t stay up that late.”

Woman 1: “She looks just gorgeous! I can’t believe it. She’s been around as long as I have, it seems, yet she looks way younger and better. I was getting so jealous!”

Woman 2: “Well, how old is she? She has got to be up there.”

Woman 1: “I don’t know. I need to go look her up on Wikipedia.”

Woman 2: “Here, I’ve got it. OK, Brooke Shields, something about Tom Cruise admiring her.”

Woman 1: “I ‘spose!”

Woman 2: “Ok, she was born in 1965.”

Woman 1: “1965! She’s ten years younger than me! She hasn’t gone through change of life. She’s been around forever! Why is it that when I find out the ages of these people, there are the ones I thought were way older than me, and I find out they aren’t that much older, like Sylvester Stallone, and there are the ones who have practically lived life alongside me, and I find out they are actually way younger than me! I can’t win!”

Woman 2: “Look, she started out her career in a movie as a child living in a brothel. She’s been exploited. We should pray for her. She probably hasn’t had much of an opportunity to know Christ and his saving power!”

Woman 1: “Oh, right! So, then she could have salvation and have this gorgeous body and beautiful face, and all that money too.”

Woman 2: “Uh…”

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Financial Miracles

Posted by imfreenow on March 20, 2008

1. TV Repair

I had an analog TV, the soon to be obsolete heavy box-shaped TV, not the flat,digital screen. I lifted it to move it to a new location, and placed it on my futon bed temporarily. It slid off the bed and onto the floor, face down.

Something happened to the screen. A friend said the ‘coating’ got messed up. There was this ugly spot on the screen. When the screen was just blue, the spot was a bright pink. when there was a picture, the skin tones were green in that spot.

I went to Best Buy and they told me that it sounded like it would cost so much it wouldn’t be worth fixing. My TV just sat there until months later when my roommate turned it on. I had stopped watching Tv altogether just as a lifestyle change. it took a while for me to notice that the spot had completely disappeared. it wasn’t until later that I recalled having laid hands on my TV and praying for it. This is another financial miracle because God prevented me from having to spend money on TV repair.

At this point, I was using my TV mainly for watching videos.

2. The Keyboard

I purchased a keyboard at a time when I had very little money- no extra money at all. I was desiring a keyboard to use for praise and worship in my home. I purchased it on credit, since I had a large amount of credit, believing God for the means to pay it back. Not long after I made the purchase, a mysterious deposit was made in my bank account for the exact amount of the keyboard. I hadn’t told anyone who had access to my bank account the exact amount of the purchase. Only my parents had deposit slips for my bank account. I hadn’t told them about my purchase. It was a bizarre miracle.

3. A Hospital Bill For $8,000

I was traveling in Canada while on a manic episode. The police stopped me because people at a hotel I had stayed at reported some odd behavior. The police determined from my behavior and language that I was delusional and brought me to a hospital. They kept me there for several days, but of course, not much care was given except for putting me up for the night and giving me medication.

When I returned to the States they sent me a bill for $8,000. I was paying for it with payments of about $15.00 a month. Once I forgot to make a payment and the bill ended up in collections, but they retrieved it from collections and I was back to making payments. I was getting prayer for this bill from my church.

At one point, I heard God tell me not to make the payment for that month. I just knew I wasn’t supposed to make any more payments. I never received another bill and nothing came from a collection agency, and this was years ago.

4. God Told Me I Would Receive $10,000.00

I heard God tell me that I would be receiving $10,000.00. I didn’t know where it would be coming from. I told a friend about this. Some time later, but not that much later, I received my first payment from my grandmother for $10,000.00. She was giving money from her estate early, before her death. We received more payments. I ended up receiving that 10,000 7 or 8 times worth. I used the money to go to the church in Toronto several times, and to buy my house.

5. A Hospital Bill For $48,000

Well, it’s simple. I had a bill that large, and it was written off. I got prayer from my small, charismatic church named Lovepower, and then went in to discuss the bill with the financial office. When they learned that I was almost jobless, they wrote off the bill.

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It’s Holy Week….

Posted by imfreenow on March 20, 2008

and I just don’t feel in the state of mind to be all reverent or religious. Jesus rose from the dead! That’s good reason to celebrate!

I started to read Joel Rosenberg’s book Epicenter, but put it down for now. For now I want to live in my bubble of happiness, unruffled by worrying about those rumblings in the Middle East and what they mean. I mean to read the book and take it seriously, but for this season of spring popping out, I just want to rejoice! For Good Friday, I think I’ll go to a water park.

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Mysterious Traveler Enters Town

Posted by imfreenow on March 18, 2008

Mysterious Traveler Entrances Town With Utopian Vision Of The Future

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Child Bankrupts Make-A-Wish Foundation

Posted by imfreenow on March 18, 2008

Child Bankrupts Make-A-Wish Foundation With Wish For Unlimited Wishes

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Delicious Snacks Distract Congressmen From Horrors Of War

Posted by imfreenow on March 18, 2008

Delicious Snacks Distract Congressmen From Horrors Of War
Great humor from The Onion

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Army Holds Annual ‘Bring Your Daughter to War’ Day

Posted by imfreenow on March 18, 2008

Army Holds Annual ‘Bring Your Daughter To War’ Day

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Online Dating helping Pathetic Women Get Their Hopes Crushed More Efficiently

Posted by imfreenow on March 18, 2008

Online Dating Helping Pathetic Women Get Their Hopes Crushed More Efficiently
More humor from The Onion

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The Power Of Love

Posted by imfreenow on March 16, 2008

This is really about the power of God. I just deleted a post called “Obama as Player.” You can only guess what that was about. If you watch the video by Bishop T.D. Jakes, you’ll hear him talk about how Satan will try to trap you in something that appeals to you.

Well, I was getting sucked into this whole thing about Obama, getting upset over people being taken by him, knowing that he is not good for the nation. I wasn’t looking beyond this – to the Lord. I was fighting this thing in my own strength.

I only know that no matter what happens, it’s going to be the power of love that makes the difference in people’s lives.

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Bishop T.D. Jakes

Posted by imfreenow on March 15, 2008

Now here is a real black man of God. He is preaching on fighting the devil. It’s an excerpt and it’s good!

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